I just dont know whats going on lately but i sure know everything is just crazy... 'maluka' my brazillian friend might say, i'm way too maluka sometimes, this friday i kind of did things that i never did before, like what?, nothing bad though but any of the 3 ended up good.. hahaha
- ended up in a karaoke with my getting-divorce-girlfriend
- lost my dkny jacket which was the match of my pants (good i didnt loose the pants.. hahhaa)
- got way too drunk...
uh? wtf i'm talking about, the third one is already a way of living.. who am i kidding? .. so..
I think i did sing, dance, cried, and came clean in front of my friends and some other were the first time i met ha, dang.... there are some pieces of that night that i dont have quite clear, and for sure i dont have the sequence but i needed it bad... my job along with my personal inner bubbles were making me crazy, obviously what i hated the most was the morning after, not cuz the hang over, i've spent years training my body to stand those, i can even eat eggs and milk, but the story of usually lately, that i go on my own, hubby wont go with me cuz he hates it, hates everything that means 'live' meaning, clubs with rockbands, live singers and karaokes, and to be very honest, this last one i dont like them either, but by the time and drinks went trough, i just kind of accept them, so, yah he was upset cuz the time i got home was in a strict point of view, a little to -early- for me, and way too late for him, anyhow, me and my friend ended up crying tears of sadness after we were laughing our asses of everything hours before, who understand women? not even between us, our sadness ended up being because of men.... and because we just have the 'regret' in our mind of not being very honest lately... but we made a pact though, whatever it happens, we will always be one for the other, whatever it happens, she knows about my silent unhappyness, and i know about her loud fake happyness, both things are not doing anything but damage inside our heads...
Besides that.. i bought a new skin for my ipod, the wireless headset as a delayed present for hubby's birthday, and lost and gained weight as usual, hubby is moving his workshop to a new and bigger place, and it supposed to get a lot better, i cant give my opinion cuz i'm those negative thinkers, but hopefully everything turns out better for him, he was doing pretty good, but he makes those kind of decisions, i'm just being supportive, otherwise i would screw him with my politics of doing business with a third party without looking for a contract and see that is all clear for all parts, but i just feel like aside and i dont want to really get into anything bottom line is that is his business and i can just only give my point of view.
On my job, everything is still quite cloudy, my boss is one big lazy ass who one of this days would stab our backs, he knows i know that, and he doesnt hate me but of course he kind of needs me right now, but once my team lead delivers the project on march.. i dont know where this would end..hopefully agains all the shit behind this, it turns out well...
right now i'm just going to watch a movie.
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>>>our sadness ended up being because of men
Sorry, SX, ya know I love ya, and that I am your unconditional friend forever. That's why gotta tell ya that I just don't agree with that statement. At all!
Or maybe I should just enjoy the text and keep my mouth shut. I dunno... can't help myself:
You are it, girl! You are responsible for yourself, as well as for your feelings. Blaming men, or whomever may make you feel better, but in the long run it only makes it worse.
The thing is this: we want things, and we get mad, and sad when we don't get our way. What don't you have that makes you sad? Is that something that you can realistically have? Does it depend upon you to have it?
If what you want is a fairy tale then maybe in the next life. If it's up to you then you're in luck. Otherwise, the hill is much steeper, but maybe it is still within reach. But if it involves someone else changing, then it is really, really hard.
That's the way of the world.
Relationships are never easy. You have to work at them. You have to find common ground, communicate, create a trusting and loving environment. Sometimes it is easy, sometimes it is hard. But it is worth it, at least it's worth to try.
Here's a little wisdom: people seldom change, if ever. If you get that, then you may live a much happier life. Believe me, I know.
Another bit of wisdom: if you want to change a person's behaviour (note: behaviour, not self) then appeal to their own self interest ("what's in it for me?"). You may be surprised at the results that you get.
Well. You know me. Ever the philosopher.
Cheers!!!
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